Please accept my sincerest condolences on your loss.  Note the beautiful promise of God at John 5:28, 29 where will be united with our loved ones again.  Revelation 21: 4 says, "And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore.  The former things have passed away." May you find comfort in this hope.