I am so sorry for your loss. I'm leaving a thought from the Bible, found in Isaiah 28:5- He will swallow up death forever, and the Sovereign Lord Jehovah will wipe away the tears from all faces.- What do you think about that? God promises to one day eliminate death, to help us heal from our hurts. I know you're still hurting now, that doesnt change that. And i am so sorry for your loss.