Loss Of A Child:
A Pain Like No Other I am so sorry for all of us Dominic, Brandon, Caitie, Zoe... our fam bam!!!
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I’M SO LOST WITHOUT MY CHILD! Your Brother!!!
The day we lost  you,
I lost me too ??
Christopher ?? my son, my love, my soul
my heart, my pain, my loss
There are many tears in my heart
that will never reach my eyes.
My Tears are words
that my heart can’t express.
How do I find me???
Now that I lost you.
Miss you my angel son. Chris (!)feeling emotional.

October 5, 2019, 1:49am

How can it be possible that these years have passed since the first time I held you in my arms? You are my amazing son; the one who made my dream of becoming a mom a reality. You have created a love inside of me so fierce, so unbreakable, so unending, and so unconditional. I am incredibly lucky to have been chosen to be your mom. I really must have done something right in life to have been given a child like you.

You have grown into an amazing young man. You are handsome, confident, smart, and well-liked by everyone. You shine in everything you do.

Please know how incredibly proud I am of you. I know I have been hard on you at times. I set high expectations that you sometimes feel are impossible to reach. Let me reassure you that you have never ever disappointed me. I set those expectations because I want you to achieve everything you have ever wanted. I want all of your greatest dreams to come true. I never want you to feel undeserving of anything, because you deserve the absolute best that life has to offer.

I want you to keep that confidence you have now, and continue to try new things; to meet new people. You never know what door will open if you just put yourself out there. You will make mistakes, but it’s okay because that’s how you learn lessons and become a better person. I’ve certainly made my share of them, and still make them today. Those mistakes create the path to the amazing life I have today.

To be honest, you have probably taught me more than I think I’ve taught you. You’ve taught me patience. I’ve learned that screaming at each other often accomplishes nothing except pain. Listening and biting my tongue are much more effective. I’ll probably still get upset and frustrated with you. I’ll probably still lecture you simply because I am your mom and that’s what we do. I’ve learned from you to not sweat the small things. You rarely get involved in any gossip, and never really care what people think of you. You choose to see the good in people, and stand up for others even when you are standing alone. Following your examples, my life has become much more fulfilling.

It amazes me how people are drawn to you. I can send you to a town half way across the country, knowing nobody, and you come home with a dozen new friends. I admire your quiet strength in the way you accept the unfair things that happen to you. You keep moving forward, never letting them drag you down.

I hope your days are everything you dreamed it could be. Remember how loved you are. You are my sweet baby, your momma’s little boy. I will all always be here for you – your biggest fan.

Your story is just beginning. I can’t wait to watch you write it.

HAPPY WEEKEND MY LOVE!!????????

Love you so much Mom

Death is not the end.  Death can never be the end.
Death is the road.  Life is the traveller.
The Soul is the Guide
Our mind thinks of death. Our heart thinks of life
Our soul thinks of Immortality
We will meet again. I love you Chris!  

Miguelito,

Yesterday was your one year angelversary day... A celebration of your life.. I'm soo proud to say I am your mother, you stood tall despite all that was handed to you and for that I know your valley was dep and long but you remained strong my love, my baby, my precious son. Love U

Hello my son,

Not a day goes by when I am not thinking of you, smiling and looking upwards as I know you are near and always with me and your brothers and beloved niece. I miss you and your silliness and goofy smile, random thoughts and amazing perspective. You have a heart bigger than anyone