Your loss has not gone unnoticed by God. Psalm 34:18 says,"Jehovah is close to the brokenhearted; He saves those who are crushed in spirit." Soon the effects of death will be done away with. Revelation 21:4 And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away.” My condolences.