I am so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is, so I wanted to share a little hope from the Bible. Isaiah 25:8 let's us know that God plans to "swallow up death forever". Doesn't that sound amazing? Then he promises in John 5:28, 29 to resurrect the ones who have died. I know when I've lost ones those promises helped me, and I hope they help you. I am so sorry for your loss.