My sincere condolences for your loss. Death is an enemy and is very hard to accept because we were not meant to die according to the Bible at Romans 5:12. God promises to do away with death, suffering and pain. Comforting words at Revelation 21:3,4 and Acts 24:15. Our dead loved ones can live again. Psalms 37:29 says, "The righteous will possess the earth and they will live forever on it."