So sorry for you loss. Losing a loved one brings much pain because we weren’t meant to die.  Jehovah God created us to live forever without sickness and death. Revelation 21:4 says, “And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor pain be anymore.” A future resurrection is promised for many.John 5:28,29, Isaiah 45:18, Psalm 37:29 jw.org