So sorry for your loss. It's devastating to lose a loved one and causes much sadness. Know that God cares and will end our suffering, sickness and death soon as it says at Revelation 21:3,4. He promises also to resurrect many back to live again forever on a restored paradise earth as was Gods original purpose in the beginning (Genesis 1:28, Acts 24:15, Psalms 37:9-11,29) See JW.org